I really hate how no matter how badly you want someone or how badly you wishthey were yours again you know you were never good enough or too fucked up to have someone who wants to stay… you lie to yoursel every day thinking one day il be good enough just to see them in love with someone else. I cant stop fucking hurting i just gave up trying to be happy cuz there is no such thing. Someone else will always come and fuck up what you gave your life up to be. Good people die alone and forgotten.
Its like you just want me to not care anymore. Too bad. Im the one bf that actually wanted it to be serious.. i wish i could be someone else so maybe youd like me again. Nothing ever compared to how happy i really was with you..
I miss the little things you did in a day.. i miss you calling 30 times in a day cuz now you dont even call once. I miss staying the night with you and waking up to you kissing my cheek in the morning. I miss our late night conveesations. Now we hardly talk at all. Is it bad that i wanted to be with you? Is it bad that when i said i loved you i actually meant it? Now all you wnt me to do is let you go. Ive fought for you for so long im past the point of just liking you. I wanted to give you a ring you mean thatuch to me. I gave up my life so you could be mine. I cant eat i cant sleep i just want this nightmare to be over so i can roll over and kiss you again..